oh well

Sekarang udah dua minggu penuh saya ada di kota baru.. dengan kebiasaankebiasaan baru, rutinitas yang belom terbentuk... oh, well - mungkin rutinitas yang bernama tidur-bangun-makan-bosansampebego-makan-bosanlagi-makan-tidur bisa dikatakan rangkaian pola rutinitas juga. Dan setelah dua minggu, rasanya pola tersebut bikin saya tambah stress. Ke-stress-an ini buat saya berfikir, untuk orangorang tertentu, pastilah sangat mengguncangkan untuk melepaskan pegangan yang begitu pasti untuk meraih pegangan yang lain. And yes! I’m among them. Rasanya seperti bergelantungan di jurang dari satu tali ke tali yang lain. Ketika kita mau maju, tentunya kita harus mengayunkan diri kita dan melepaskan tali yang kita pegang untuk dapat memegang tali di depan kita. Dan tentunya saat yang paling mengerikan adalah ketika kita sesaat mengayun sepenuhnya di udara tanpa pegangan dan pijakan apapun.

Seharusnya ayunan ini gak lama, tapi don’t know why it feels like damn forever for me. Dua minggu yang penuh dengan perjuangan, rasanya semua terbalikbalik dan sangat melelahkan… it’s been more a torment than a challenge for me.

Sebenernya selama dua minggu ini saya coba menikmati hidup dengan meng-explore halhal baru. Pergi ketempat baru, nyobain makanan baru, ngobrol sama orang baru. But once again, I don’t know why it’s doesn’t enough.

Mungkin karena kesibukan saya yang super ketat di kota sebelumnya. Pekerjaan yang menyita banyak waktu dan energi yang sudah saya lakukan sedari muda (jiahhh… ngaku udah tua!) pergi pagi pulang malem… kerjaan itu benerbener jadi idup saya selama bertahuntahun.

Mungkin karena tementemen kuliahan yang selalu nyediain waktu untuk ketemuan ramerame dengan kegiatan berulang (makan ato karaoke, makan ato karaoke).

Mungkin karena pipi chubby keponakan dan mulutnya yang berbentuk segitiga pengaman.

Mungkin karena kebawelan enyak di rumah…

Ketiadaan itu semuamuanya bikin saya serasa kebakaran jenggot n it really feels deep into my core.

And for some new challenges:

• to get used to living in a new neighborhood with their own habits
• to try hard remember the streets & location so I won’t get lost
• to try to survive with my own feet
• to experience about marriage life & really live in it.
• to get an answer for daily question: "what are you going to do today?"
  

I do need all the power in earth and heaven to number 4 (T______T)

i do miss everyone and everything at my previous city

good morning all! how are you today? let's start today with smile and an open heart to see all marvelous things around us. i start this day with a simple songs sung by whitney houston - one of my fave singer.

"I Look To You"

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

reff:
I look to you,
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong
I look to you,
I look to you
And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song
I look to you

Have to lose my breath
There's no fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm go'n make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

reff:
My levees are broken
My walls are coming down on me
My rain is falling
Defeat is calling
I need you to set me free
Take me far away from the battle
I need you
Shine on me!

you can also download here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Pze_mdbOK8

Kuta Beach

i'm at the beach again... spent holiday with my husband and my new friends... :) There are seven of us. three couples and one adorable baby... and yes! we are chinese, korean & indonesian... hahahaha.... the weather is just great! plus cold beer of course. many family bring their dogs and children to play. but i think there are too many people, so we can't have much privacy... i don't shoot much tempted with the ocean and the fun.

Bidadari Island

~ jakarta's night view from across ~

~ silent whisper ~

~ stillness of the dawn ~

~ night dock -

~ night view at the beach ~

on my birthday last year i had a chance to go Bidadari Island. it is an island resort nearby ancol. with my officemate, we went there by a small boat about 20 minutes from Marina Bay, Ancol. I spent 2 days 1 night at that resort and happy to had a photot hunting at night & dawn...
above are a few of my original -no edit snapshot. i hope you enjoy it...

Making my own strawberry jam (low calories one)

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This Tuesday I made my first strawberry jam. It’s all beginning with an idea to make a healthy food for my husband. Well, everybody knows that I’m not good in the kitchen. I never cook, I mean really cook. Of course I’ve cooked some instant food like noodles, porridge, water, rice (with rice cooker of course) and some simple cah vegetables but for me that was not a really cooking. I even can’t remember the process if I should do it again… If you ask me to find a pan, I will lost in my mother’s kitchen. (ok.. I admitted it… that’s too much).
So a day before I was going out to Carrefour market and choose a box of fresh strawberry. Why strawberry? This is my first trial so I don’t want to mess up with awkward fruits. So I decided to a common fruits. Then I went to sugar shelf and find a low calories sugar and gelatin. This is how the process:
1. wash strawberries directly into a flow water
2. chops it into small pieces or you can blender it if you are lazy
3. add little water and start to cook it with a small fire
4. pour sugar as your wish
5. when the strawberries are smooth enough and the jam getting sticky add a little gelatin. The gelatin used to make the jam more solid when it’s cold
6. put the jam into a glass bottle, better with a stainless top and put it into refrigerator
it was so much fun to do. And the best thing is LOW CALORIES hahahahahahaha…. This home made jam don’t have a good color, if you want to make it more lovely seen you can pour a little food color. But for me it’s lovely enough because it’s low calories and of course no preservative. Hm… I don’t know how long this home made jam with low sugar calories can eat at the best condition, but if you used common kitchen sugar, it can last at least 6 months to one year.

hello

Hello world! :) this is my first post. i could say that this is my own world... here in you can see a piece of me.. to know a bit of me. I'll write here both in English language and bahasa as i like, since my English isn't good enough. i hope i can practice with much fun. :)